Anytime I hear someone say something about starting over, starting new, or anything of that nature, I always stop and think, You can't start over just once, everything is a constant start over, or newness. As much as I hate change and having to adjust to change, starting over is nothing to hate on. I feel that those two things, change and starting over, are totally different.
Change, in my thinking, is for example, having to move, getting a different job, a different sleep schedule. Those changes can be irritating, and hard to do at times. Starting over, however, is like beginning a new year, having a different outlook on things, having a new school schedule. Starting over comes naturally in a way, something that you choose to do, instead of being forced to do. I think everyone can agree that doing something that you like to do, or want to do, is far better adjusting to than something that you don't want to do, or have control over. Why do we get so upset and down when we lose control of things? Why can't we be content with everything?
So far this year, I have worked, got everything ready for school, played in the most snow that i can remember ever having, and missing a week of work and school due to that snow. So far this year has gone pretty good. I'm keeping my head up, concentrating on things that should be concentrated on, rather than the things that I can't help, and can't fix. I have been doing better about not dwelling on the past. I keep telling myself, "What's done is done, you can't help what happened then, now you know what to do when the time comes." and so on like that. I haven't really wrote about my "dwellings" because it is something that I don't really want to read over this time next year, or later on. I hope that it becomes a forgetful memory. The bad things that happened when I was a teenager are over with, so forgetting now. Not sitting her thinking about what I should have done, or what I wish I had done. Nope. Take what I know, and put them into place now. And later. Know what I did wrong, and don't do it again. I know those childish mistakes are behind me, and won't ever show up again.
School was supposed to start on the 10th. The whole state was pretty much covered in snow and ice. Today I had my first Science meeting. There are only 8 people in the class! I don't think it is gonna be as bad as I first thought. I'm taking a full load, as always, and so far I'm able to stay ahead of the game and on top. Hopefully it will stay that way. I'm a bad procrastinator when it comes to lesson plans, or other big projects. I'm gonna try my hardest not to do that!!
